Stella the Star

25.11.2011

My AMAZING BABY GIRL is spending her fifth day in the Intensive Care Unit at the Mater.

Tuesday morning started with an ambulance trip to the hospital as Stella wasn’t responding to anything.

After four days of utter gloom and sadness my princess has once again astounded the doctors and she is breathing by herself, opening her eyes and looking around.

I am just so bloody proud of her, I want the whole world to know how strong, brave and courageous my daughter Stella is.

18.11.2011

Instead of saying "Stella, leave your brother alone" or "stop taking your nappy off"

I have to say to my daughter,

"Stella, take a breath" and "Please swallow baby"



This is an incredibly life deliberating disease that deserves more research and more funding.

Seven months ago I had so many hopes for my girl, what she will be like in high school, what kind of woman she will be grow up to be. I knew she would always be strong and opinionated - she was a vivacious girl and still is on the inside.

Today, I just wait for one smile, one connection, each day at a time.

We've spent a few days at hospital this week. She's home now and is on the mend but every sickness knocks her little brain and body back 10 steps.

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Please, cuddle your little ones and never ever take for granted what you have. I know it’s a cliché thing to say but I really do mean it and I’m living by it every single day.

Upset

16.11.2011     ( 7 months on to the day )


Ive been feeling very emotional this week.
Everytime I look at Stella I cant help think what she 'should' be doing.

I dont normally think about the future, I think about the now.
Thinking into the future just crushes my heart.

It is so so unfair.
I still cant grasp why this has happened to my Stella.
I'm trying my very hardest to be strong for her but sometimes I just cant help but cry.

Here she is, the most beautiful girl xx

Kisses and cuddles

10.11.11
From today I am going to make more time for kisses and cuddles.

Cleaning, washing and running around can wait..... 

KISSES AND CUDDLES are going to be my top priority.