Friday, March 23, 2012

Over three months on


Well its been a little while since I last wrote a blog post, and to be honest I haven’t because I haven’t known what to write.

How I feel day to day varies so much.

I drove past our ‘old route’ to the Mater last week, and I swear I nearly had a panic attack.

I was out shopping with my hubby and I saw a cute little sign that said
“I’ve already found my prince, his name is Daddy” , I read this and felt like crying. My husband has lost his little princess.

We were at a friends house for dinner two nights ago, and he handed me Stella’s pink tea party basket. I use to use it to carry her toys around when visiting people.
It has been there for over a year and I had forgotten about it… So many dreams and hopes in just a little tea set...

I hate feeling like I have to say that Jett is my first child to people I meet in day to day life, just so I don’t make them feel “uncomfortable”. People dont know what to say, and a lot of the time it's easier to say nothing, but then I feel so terrible. He is my second, and Stella was and always will be my first   :'(

I still buy Stella pretty things every week. I can’t help myself. I place whatever I have bought in amongst all her other “treasures” in her special room.

I just miss her, miss her sweet little face.

My little Stella Bella, baby princess forever xxx

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Jett turns 1 today !


My handsome baby boy turns the big one today !
He has brought so many smiles and so much love and laughter to our whole family.
He'll never know how much he has helped me this last year, he's one special little soul who I know came into this world for a very profound reason just like his special sister, Stella.

My Stella Baby should be here having fun with her brother.
Stella would have been 2 years, 1 month and 3 weeks old today.
I know he see's her most days, as he waves to the air, always races to her room to play and blows kisses to her photos...

When he's older he's going to ask where Stella is. He's going to know her and remember her and that's just how I want it.

Jetty Spaghetti having fun at the pool